In Denial

Haven't posted all month on this blog.  My weight has only gone up.  Feeling unconfortable at this new weight.  Need to get committed to this blog and be totally honest.  My weight is now 136lbs. 

Weekend Away Will Do It Everytime

Went away for Labor Day weekend.  I think I did well last week with my eating until the weekend.  Actually, I did well while gone except for this stupid can of Honey Roasted Peanuts.  I ate the whole thing.  I know I can't resist them, so why did I buy them.

So I weight myself yesterday, and I went up a pound.  Not a success but not a tragedy.

These few pounds I need to lose might take longer than I thought, but at least I am not gaining at the rate I was a few weeks ago:)

Here I go again.

Today I start keeping track of my eating and exercise.  Had I started this days ago, I might be ahead.  As it is, I ate way too much this weekend and my weight is up even more.  I did exercise and so there is progress there.  Well, I guess I should tell you I weigh 131 lbs.  A few days ago I was 1 1/2 lbs lighter but this is my life and I am a real and flawed woman.  So here I go.  I am trying a different online site to keep track of my food and exercise.

My eating was on target today except the calories are low. I got a new book, it is for IBS but I think it has good info and recipes I can adapt.

Breakfast-

• Rice Krispies
• sugar
• milk
• coffee
• creamer

Lunch-

• Pasta with pizza sauce and mozzarella

Dinner

• Tilapia
• Basmati Rice
• Tartar sauce

Fiber-3.3 grams Calories-848 Fat-19.69 grams

Health-Felt much better today. Was very careful. Hopefully new cookbook with help me stay on track

Weight-124.5

BM-9:00am-N. 1:30pm-N

Improvement!

This morning, I woke up feeling that my intestines are on the upswing in healing. When I eat too much fiber or meat or residue, if it is starting to block, I get bad cramping. I might also vomit. 3 nights ago I started doing both. The vomiting stopped. Slowly, over a day or so the cramping stopped. But then I am left with the bloating, swelling of the abdomen, intestines and stomach. It also is tender to touch. I have not wanted any pressure from pants, even some of my jammies to be against my middle.

This morning, I woke up knowing I had improved a lot. I am still swollen in my upper small intestines, but I don't feel like someone took a Brillo pad and scrubbed the inside of my bowels. Yes, that's how it felt. The secret to avoiding doing this is to first make good choices, keep track throughout the day on fiber grams, and then post here on my day so if I have an issue, I can go back and see what the problem may be. Why do I get lazy and stop this process until I have problems? I don't know. But I need to be consistent. Today, I plan on eating more. My calories have been too low because I wanted to give my bowels a bit of a break. I probably could use one more day of very low eating but I am hungry and might start making bad choices if I don't eat more soon.

I weighed myself this morning. I guess the tightness of my pants is only because of swelling. I weighed 124.5. I am conflicted about what weight would be the healthiest for me. I know I can't be any bigger because I gain it in my abdomen region. Which is not good for cancer detection. And I am pretty sure if I lose 10 or 15 more pounds, most of it would come off my middle because that's the only place I still have fat. But to maintain 110 to 115 lbs would be much harder and the foods I eat are not low fat, diety type of foods. I guess I will just stick with trying to keep my calories between 1400-1600 and if with more activity, I lose a few more pounds, great! If not, it wasn't meant to be.

Sunday May 2, 2010 Too many carbs

I need to make changes but here was what I ate.

Breakfast

• Honey bunches of oats cereal
• milk
• glazed donut

Late lunch-early dinner

• Pasta alfredo
• garlic bread
• chocolate chip cookies
• juice

Fiber-8.4 grams Calories-1826 fat-79

Mondays weight- 124.5

Health-I obviously am eating too much carbs and fat. I started having issues Saturday night with going a lot and being very acidic. Bottom burning a lot. The next day I went a little throughout the day and by around 6:00 I was going a lot. Not diarrhea but acidic. I think several things are going on here. I am eating too many carbs at one time, like pasta and garlic bread, cereal and a donut. I ate a double portion of the pasta, the sauce, the donut, the garlic bread all high in fat. I am eating more dairy than I should and I am not drinking enough water. So the plan this week is as follows:

Eat only one new or complex ingredient food in a day, IE. alfredo sauce, eat pure one ingredient foods for the most part. Eat small 1 serving size portion. 1 cup pasta instead of two. Eat one carb. per meal. Eat at least 1 egg or fish per day. less cheese, and drink more water. List every bite on my food calculator.

Well that's it. I hope to be having more manageable BM's in a couple days.

Not feeling well

April 26, 2010 Monday



I did not feel well so I ate easy to digest food. No meat!



Breakfast

• cereal


• milk

Lunch

• cereal


• milk

Dinner

• french toast with syrup


• apple juice

Fiber-8.0 grams Calories-1173 Fat-17.24 grams

Weight-124.5 lbs Up a little but am not concerned since no bm for 3 days.
Health-I had to do enema for doctor appointment this morning. Hopefully I will feel better soon.

Back To Measuring Food

When it comes to dieting, I have been on one for a lot of my adult life. I have easily lost weight eating healthy high-fiber foods like fruits and veggies and whole grains. They are filling and keep the calories down. In other words, you bulk up to bulk down.

I don't need to lose weight now but I do need to keep the weight off. This will be a challenge. I have the added challenge of not being able to eat any of the food that are bulky. I also, and this is most important, need to keep fiber under 8 to 10 grams a day. So over eating calories is very easy. I have a new problem, since this past year my tastes have changed. I have never been a sweet eater. But now I crave sweets. Baked goods, chocolate, sugar, sugar, sugar. It doesn't help that I love to bake.

So here I am measuring my foods carefully. I have been doing well keeping my fiber grams down. But not my calories. Because I am not overly active yet, (although improving everyday), my goal is to keep calories somewhere between 1400-1600. I am not very tall, a little over 5'1" and my goal is to stay between 120-125lbs. So wish me luck keeping this weight off. I try only to weigh myself once a week. I don't want to obsess and lets face it, some days I probably retain 3 lbs of water, so for now, Mondays are weigh in days.



Measuring my breakfast, 3/4 C. Life cereal and 1/2 c. nonfat milk is about 2 grams of fiber. That's about a quarter of the amt. I can have all day. See my dilemma.

Tuesday April 20, 2010

Breakfast

• Life cereal


• Milk


• Coffee with creamer

Lunch

• 1 egg omelet with a little cheese and onion


• 1/2 cup homemade juice


• toast with small amount of butter


• Lemon cake I had just baked

Dinner

• 3oz steak


• 1/2 c Rice


• 1 deviled egg
  
• 1 c. homemade juice
• Lemon cake (again)

Fiber-5.4 grams Calories-1389 Fat 33.12 grams

Update to Today

This isn't my first time being on a low residue diet. When I had my ileostomy, I had to be careful not to eat certain foods. But this is my first time I am needing to be very serious about what I put in my mouth. This last hospital stay really gave me a scare. So to catch up so I have a full account of this journey, I will do an overview of the last 6 days. I am doing it mainly from memory so it really is just a general overview.

Sunday April 11-I ate breakfast at the hospital. This was my first solid food for 4 days. They let me out of the hospital after they knew my breakfast went through the narrow part of my intestines. Takes 1 to 2 hrs for this to happen. I got home around 2:00.

• Breakfast-Pancakes, coffee, crandberry juice
• Early dinner-Pasta, and ? (? means I don't remember)

Monday-

• Breakfast-coffee and creamer
• Lunch-Frosted flakes, milk
• Dinner-Bacon, eggs, toast, Juice, Potatos
• Snack-Earthquake, Potato bread, and butter

Fiber-5g. My Weight 121lb Health-feel good and bm's good

Tuesday-

• Breakfast-coffee and creamer
• Lunch-Bacon sandwich
• Dinner-Beef and Cheese Tortilla, Wine
• Snack-Brownie

Fiber-4.9g Health-feel good,BM's good

Wednesday-

• Breakfast-Honey bunches of oats, milk
• Lunch-Egg salad sandwich, chips, Brownie
• Dinner-Scallops, Green beans, New potato

Fiber-7.5g Health-Not feeling as well. Diarrhea. E-mailed Doctor for more Directions

Thursday-??

Still not feeling well. The Doctor e-mailed me back and said he wanted me on the strictest form of Low residue diet, which means limiting dairy, no alcohol, and only juices for fruits and vegetables except for bananas. He did say I could have coffee:)

Friday-

• Breakfast-Coffee, Creamer, apple juice, banana bread
• Lunch-Mac and Cheese, chicken breast, crandberry juice
• Dinner-Hamburger, bun, chips, banana bread

Fiber-5.6g Health-felt a bit constipated. It was 2 days since BM but apple juice took care of it and I hope to feel better tomorrow.

Now I can start fresh with daily postings.