My eating was on target today except the calories are low. I got a new book, it is for IBS but I think it has good info and recipes I can adapt.

Breakfast-

• Rice Krispies
• sugar
• milk
• coffee
• creamer

Lunch-

• Pasta with pizza sauce and mozzarella

Dinner

• Tilapia
• Basmati Rice
• Tartar sauce

Fiber-3.3 grams Calories-848 Fat-19.69 grams

Health-Felt much better today. Was very careful. Hopefully new cookbook with help me stay on track

Weight-124.5

BM-9:00am-N. 1:30pm-N

Improvement!

This morning, I woke up feeling that my intestines are on the upswing in healing. When I eat too much fiber or meat or residue, if it is starting to block, I get bad cramping. I might also vomit. 3 nights ago I started doing both. The vomiting stopped. Slowly, over a day or so the cramping stopped. But then I am left with the bloating, swelling of the abdomen, intestines and stomach. It also is tender to touch. I have not wanted any pressure from pants, even some of my jammies to be against my middle.

This morning, I woke up knowing I had improved a lot. I am still swollen in my upper small intestines, but I don't feel like someone took a Brillo pad and scrubbed the inside of my bowels. Yes, that's how it felt. The secret to avoiding doing this is to first make good choices, keep track throughout the day on fiber grams, and then post here on my day so if I have an issue, I can go back and see what the problem may be. Why do I get lazy and stop this process until I have problems? I don't know. But I need to be consistent. Today, I plan on eating more. My calories have been too low because I wanted to give my bowels a bit of a break. I probably could use one more day of very low eating but I am hungry and might start making bad choices if I don't eat more soon.

I weighed myself this morning. I guess the tightness of my pants is only because of swelling. I weighed 124.5. I am conflicted about what weight would be the healthiest for me. I know I can't be any bigger because I gain it in my abdomen region. Which is not good for cancer detection. And I am pretty sure if I lose 10 or 15 more pounds, most of it would come off my middle because that's the only place I still have fat. But to maintain 110 to 115 lbs would be much harder and the foods I eat are not low fat, diety type of foods. I guess I will just stick with trying to keep my calories between 1400-1600 and if with more activity, I lose a few more pounds, great! If not, it wasn't meant to be.

Breakfast

• coffee
• creamer

Lunch

• egg
• 2 bread
• butter

Dinner

• Mac and cheese

Fiber-5.0 Calories-691 Fat-28.79

Health-Abdomen is still sore and swollen. I was careful today, eating things that I knew would not bother my intestines. Haven't weighed myself in a while. I need to remember to do that in the morning. It may not be pretty. BM at 7:30pm. A pretty normal one for me.

Saturday May 29, 2010

I kept my eating somewhat to a minimum.

Breakfast

• coffee
• creamer

Lunch

• Halibut
• mashed potatoes
• garlic toast

Dinner

• I skipped, just to be safe

Fiber-4.4 grams Calories-547 Fat-15.17 grams

Health-Cramping has been slowing down. BM about 2:00 in afternoon. Not very much. But my abdomen, intestines and bowel are very swollen and very sore. Need to have my head examined if I ever do this to myself again.

Spitting Nails

I am so angry at myself. I have no business just winging it with my diet. The stakes are too high.

Not only have I not been keeping track of fiber grams, but I also have introduced many foods to my diet at the same time. Without even documenting. So today, I am about 36 hours from my last bm, I had bad cramping last night. and I vomited 3 times. All signs that I possibly have a blockage. I can't even say what food has caused it because in yesterday, I had 3 new foods. Stupid, stupid, stupid. So today, I am going to my sisters to celebrate her birthday. Then we are all going to lunch. I will be lucky if I make it to my sis's. Let alone go to lunch.

I will not eat breakfast this morning, just coffee. If I do make it to lunch, I need to be very careful what I eat. If I am still cramping, I will skip lunch also.

I have said it before, I need to be meticulous on documenting what goes in my body. But I have ignored this. I have had too many scares this month. I am being reckless with my life. Stupid stupid stupid.

Oh no, maybe blockage

So far today I woke up and felt a bit bloated. Ate toast with margarine and very little seedless marion berry Jam. By about 8:30 cramping started. I have had nothing else to eat and am sipping just a bit of water and 7-up. It is almost 5:00pm and I am still cramping. No BM yet today either. post more later

May 5, 2010 Thursday

Breakfast-

• cap'n crunch
• milk

Lunch

• 2 servings pasta
• Sauce from pizza with slivered basil on top
• juice

Dinner

• homemade Potato soup
• Homemade white bread (the heal)

Did not figure out the fiber fat and calories today.

Health-No BM

Had Tests Today

I had a mammogram and my quarterly blood test today. So will be on pins and needles until I know the results of both.

Lunch-

• cheese pizza (ate two times more then needed to but was really hungry
• Juice

Dinner

• french toast and syrup

Snack

• Cap'n crunch and milk ( 2 servings)

Fiber-8.6 grams Calories-1680 Fat-51.15 grams

Health-Did not take my multivitamin. Had Bm starting at 3:30 till about 5:45. slight improvement today. I didn't start eating until lunch to prevent triggering bm before my appointments.

Home made pizza!

Last night after I posted, I had a bout of diarrhea. I decided to try not taking my multivitamin and see if it helps with burning or diar.

Breakfast

• cap'n crunch
• milk
• coffee and creamer

Lunch

• 2 eggs
• home made bread made into toast
• margarine
• juice

Dinner

• Homemade cheese pizza
• wine

Fiber-6.5 Calories-1436 Fat-48.05

Health-9:30 am. started having urgent BM's for about an hour. Ok the rest of the day.

***Added this later, I spoke too soon. 6:30pm diarrhea hit for a couple hours. Not good and can't figure this one out:(

Made a great homemade pizza. the dough is....................

proof 1tbs barely warm water with 1/2 tsp yeast. after 10 mins. put it with 3 cups flour, 3/4 cup barely warm water. Mix, add 3/4 tsp salt. Mix again. Add 6 tbs extra virgin olive oil. kneed in mixer for 7 minutes. Put in a oiled bowl and cover with wrap. Let rise for 4 hrs. separate in two balls, put each ball on pan and refrigerate for 15 min. take out and pull and roll to fit the pans.

Sauce recipe........................

12 oz of seedless homemade spaghetti sauce

3 tablespoons grated Parmesan cheese

2 tablespoons honey

1 tsp anchovy paste

1 tsp garlic powder

1/4 tsp each of oregano, basil, and black pepper

1/8 tsp each of cayenne pepper and red pepper flakes

Put sauce on pizzas, mozzarella cheese, at the end add fresh basil julienned

Bake at 500 degrees for 15 minutes.

Breakfast-

• Cap'n crunch cereal
• milk

Lunch

• pasta alfredo

Snack

• choc. chip cookies

Dinner

• Tilapia fish
• bake potato
• margarine
• sour cream

Fiber-4.8 grams Calories-1155 Fat-54.26 grams

Diet-I did a bit better keeping portion size, fiber, dairy and carbs down a little but fat is still way too high and might be contributing to some issues.

Digestion-No pains, two BM sessions, normal form but still burning like acidic. Need more water.

Sunday May 2, 2010 Too many carbs

I need to make changes but here was what I ate.

Breakfast

• Honey bunches of oats cereal
• milk
• glazed donut

Late lunch-early dinner

• Pasta alfredo
• garlic bread
• chocolate chip cookies
• juice

Fiber-8.4 grams Calories-1826 fat-79

Mondays weight- 124.5

Health-I obviously am eating too much carbs and fat. I started having issues Saturday night with going a lot and being very acidic. Bottom burning a lot. The next day I went a little throughout the day and by around 6:00 I was going a lot. Not diarrhea but acidic. I think several things are going on here. I am eating too many carbs at one time, like pasta and garlic bread, cereal and a donut. I ate a double portion of the pasta, the sauce, the donut, the garlic bread all high in fat. I am eating more dairy than I should and I am not drinking enough water. So the plan this week is as follows:

Eat only one new or complex ingredient food in a day, IE. alfredo sauce, eat pure one ingredient foods for the most part. Eat small 1 serving size portion. 1 cup pasta instead of two. Eat one carb. per meal. Eat at least 1 egg or fish per day. less cheese, and drink more water. List every bite on my food calculator.

Well that's it. I hope to be having more manageable BM's in a couple days.

What Can I Eat?

Well I did create this blog so I could document my diet and health closer and not have so much of it on my other blog. Well this post is going to be a whinny one. But since no one really reads this, I feel free to unload.

The last couple days I didn't document what I ate because I felt I was getting pretty good at keeping with in the low residue guidelines. Well I shouldn't have been so sure of myself. I am still finding foods that I can not eat.

Yesterday I went fishing and didn't get back until almost 6:00. Didn't want to fry fish by the time we would get them cleaned so I put bacon in the oven and let it cook while we cleaned our fish and put them in the freezer. So at around 6:30 I ate a bacon sandwich with one leaf of lettuce. I am not sure if it was the one leaf of lettuce or the 2 strips of bacon or probably both. But around 1:30 this morning the now familiar pain and cramping in the location of my damaged intestine started up. Meaning it was partially blocked. If it was not blocked, it would have passed the area and been in my colon hours ago. See the kind of detective I am becoming. Anyway, panic set in so I got up hoping the food would dislodge and pass through. Although my abdomen is sore this morning, I think I got lucky and avoided a trip to the hospital. I think. Didn't sleep much after that.

So now I am crossing lettuce, even a small amount off my list and also bacon. So what can I eat? Well so far fish doesn't seem to be a problem. White rice, white bread, low fiber cereal, white pasta, eggs (thank God for my chickens), baked goods made with white flour and without nuts and fruit. A little dairy. Juices without pulp. Except prune juice. Thinking..........Thinking.............Yep that's about it. It may sound like a lot to someone else but there is not many dishes I like that doesn't have meat and vegetables in it. Oh I forgot potatoes without the skin. I can have that:)

So today I am back keeping track of exactly what and how much I eat. I do not what to have my belly cut wide open and have my intestines removed, only to cause more scarring and possibly more problems and perhaps an ostomy. So this diet is very serious for me. No one in my real life really wants to know the details of my diet, weight and in general health. Besides my hubby, what every one else really wants to know is that my cancer has not returned and that's about it. Who could blame them. So this little blog that no one reads gets to hear it all. Aren't you so lucky:)

Going to try making a Quiche with homemade pie dough, eggs, milk and a little cheese. I hope I can digest that.